when will this end

for about a week now i have had zero energy do things, i even force myself to sleep more so i dont have to wake up and face another boring day.
i like it when i wake up at like 9-10, cuz i get to goof around the house by myself.
i cant wait to 2009 T_T, or October/November, gosh these boys are being slow, it didnt take them this long to release zimmer 483 or did it?

omg its july, ive been on vacation for three freaking weeks and i havent even gone out with my friends! >_>, i blame them.
i dont know, we're just not like normal best friends.

i always deny wat i dont like about myself, i find it comforting, i know im human but i hate having many flaws.

i dreamt i was going to a wedding, i wore a sparkly short dress, really cute.
i hate having dreams that make no sens, i wish i could dream about.................first day of school
i dont even want to think about it now, but im really worried.